I don’t feel a bit different. I will
revise that last statement: I feel slightly different in that I am a little
less smart. The show “Jeopardy!” proves this to me week after week. I used to
be a sharp cookie, but my children suck away my intelligence the way a leech feeds
off the blood of its prey.
I should add that my anti-seizure
medication has a side effect that makes it more difficult to instantly recall
information. This would naturally make it seem like Alex Trebek is mocking me
when he’s merely being the same Canadian super-braniac guy he’s always been.
I’m just slowing down.
I promised myself I wouldn’t get
depressed for my birthday and I didn’t initially. It helped that my best
friend, Cozette, took a flight from Washington State to celebrate with me.
My son and I drove to the airport
which is one of my least favorite things to do. We arrived early so we wandered
around checking out the tourist stores while we waited. I allowed a woman to
step on my foot just to see if she would because she was not watching where she
was walking. She was horribly sorry. I patted her arm and told her it was okay
then I laughed and told my son to pay attention because these people would run
you over.
It was probably mean of me to do
that, but I’m always conducting a personal social experiment to see how
invisible I can become in well-lit areas. It isn’t like I’m a small person who
is easy to walk into. You really have to try to do it.
Somehow, we missed Cozette. She
slipped past us while we were in a store. After about 30 minutes, we found each
other and headed out to dinner.
I can’t explain the giggle-fest that
happens when I get around her, but anyone with a true best friend probably
understands. We fall right into that comfortable talk and inside joke routine.
It doesn’t matter how long it has been since the last time we’ve seen one
another.
While I had Cozette, my daughter was
spending a couple days with her best friend/cousin who was in town from
Jacksonville. They are like two peas in a pod.
I had a small party that was going
to be much bigger, but evidently Thanksgiving weekend is not the most
convenient time to have a 40th birthday party. On a positive note,
the core group of fun people was there and we had a blast. Some of it got on
video. This may not be a good thing.
Cozette went home, my niece went
back to Jacksonville and the blues settled in my house.
It doesn’t help that my washer and
dryer are on the fritz and I have to go to the Laundromat. Sitting in that
place just gives me more time to think about how much I miss my friend and how
I can’t stand living so far apart.
All this past week in school, my
girl has been on yellow and orange for behavior. She’s having a hard time
getting back in the swing of things too.
Hopefully we can shake these funky
feelings soon. Our kitten doesn’t care about our mood. She chews on our feet
and hands regardless of how we feel on the inside. It keeps us grounded.
Unless something changes, I’ll just
continue taking the days as they come. Fifty, I’m coming for you next.
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